legs

 

i never really had an opinion on my legs but i noticed it was a thing that people wanted to talk about. i never thought of them other than neutrally, but i was kinda annoyed that I couldn't get the same all over colour that i saw in magazines or that ti thought other people had, they were pale and bruised easily. though sometime later, people used to comment on them. once someone said, its a real shame your legs are so long it makes you look really out of proportion. i remember being really puzzled, because they had meant it as a sick burn. and it was just kinda, confusing. I didn't really get why that was something to be ashamed of, but it made me feel bad. i must point out that it was two short girls that said it. they just told me that they noticed, they weren't girls i ever really spoke to much apart from that. i didnt hold on to it, but i think about it sometimes

For a long time, i didn't own a pair of trousers, and i was so proud that i only wore dresses. I guess that was the thing that made it easier to get dressed. i used to wear heels a lot. all the time. but then things changed, and then i coudlnt any more. and nothing felt right any more, nothing felt comfortable and it didnt fit right. for a long time nothing fetl right on my body. then i covered my legs and then i found leggings and then that felt safe. for a long long time. i never showed my legs or my arms. and then i found leggings and that made everything loads easier. 

recently, i started wearing shorts, and i like it