I put these stickers on my face at night to stop be frowning in my sleep because I used to wake up with a headache, and visible lines between my eyebrows. it's not because I care much what i look like, but I do feel it when my face is reacting in this way. sometimes it makes me feel very conscious of what my face is doing. It also hurts, and this makes me relax a little.
I know i frown a lot. I know sometimes it's what other people tell me makes them worried that I'm about to blow up, or I'm doing something wrong. Either that or that my face looks too blank.
Once, a partner told me i frown too much and that i'll get wrinkles. they showed me a youtube video on how to control your face. "are you the unhappy owner of eleven lines" it started, I remember so clearly. its' not okay for your face to do that. it's not okay to have wrinkles. I tried to be more blank.
When we were in the taxi on the way back from the play, I saw my face in the rear-view mirror and I could see the eleven line. I felt like you would be embarrassed and angry at me. I know it will happen one day and I won't be able to get rid of it, and then i think that you won't find it attractive any more