i don't have that though. Sometimes I have felt empty inside or dead, but not for long, though there was a time when I didn't feel much at all apart from sadness and frustrated anger, when I was on Sri's for a long time.
I don't feel like there's a hole or something I need to make me complete, though I do want love from an adult and I do like having a hobby to focus on ans a purpose. Sometimes I struggle to see the point of wish I was not here, or my job becomes suffocating and I want to run away. But I don't feel empty.
I always struggled to understand this one and how it might feel. I get it, but not all the time. Not chronic.
I wonder who described it to make it canon. How they talked about nothingness and lack. You can't mourn something you never had, my therapist once said.
I think it's more, desire to be something, to know yourself, to find all the things other people find so easy, easy for you too. To stop having to want for them and to live them. But that doesn't ever seem to come even when you have it because you can't relax. So maybe it's wanting for comfort, maybe that would make you whole.
But I don't feel empty of still. I feel a million things rushing through, overlapping, muddling. Nothing quite right or fitting, it feel both hd or a blurry vignette, shadows in the corners hiding thoughts that could pop out and suprise me. It feels difficult to process.
Yann used to make me watch with him Japanese anime, Spanish dubbed, with french subtitles. I think about that sometimes. Do you get everything all at once, or do you get nothing, or do you feel yourself sliding in between - parts you understand or recognise changing moment to moment.
So I guess I don't know how to understand chronic feelings of emptiness, not fully. Though I think I do know what that feels like. I don't know how you would ever prove it though.